This is for all the Uniformed Personel that I have come to love so Dearly. For all of the hardwork, dedication, long hours, holiday's worked away from family and for putting your life on the line day after day. This pageis for you, MY ANGELS IN BLUE. Thank you!!!

"I Wish You Could See"
I wish you could know what it is like too search a burning bedroom for trapped
children, flames rolling above your head, your palms and knees burning as you
crawl, the floor sagging under your weight as the kitchen below you burns.

I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 3 in the morning as I check her
husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to
bring him back, knowing intuitively it is too late. But wanting his wife and family
to know everything possible was done to try to save his life.

I wish you knew the unique smell of burning insulation, the taste of soot-filled
mucus, the feeling of intense heat through your turnout gear, the sound of flames
crackling, the eeriness of being able to see absolutely nothing in dense
smoke-sensations that I've become too familiar with.

I wish you could understand how it feels to go to work in the morning after
having spent most of the night, hot and soaking wet at a multiple alarm fire.
I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a building fire "Is this a
false alarm or a working fire? How is the building constructed?
What hazards await me? Is anyone trapped?" Or to an EMS call, "
What is wrong with the patient? Is it minor or life-threatening? Is
the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a 2x4 or a gun?"

I wish you could be in the emergency room as a doctor pronounces dead
the beautiful five-year old girl that I have been trying to save during the past
25 minutes. Who will never go on her first date or say the words, "I love you
Mommy" again.

I wish you could know the frustration I feel in the cab of the engine or my
personal vehicle, the driver with his foot pressing down hard on the pedal,
my arm tugging again and again at the air horn chain, as you fail to yield
the right-of-way at an intersection or in traffic.

When you need us however, your first comment upon our arrival will be, "
It took you forever to get here!"

I wish you could know my thoughts as I help extricate a girl of teenage years
from the remains of her automobile. "What if this was my sister, my girlfriend
or a friend? What were her parents reaction going to be when they opened
the door to find a police officer with hat in hand?"

I wish you could know how it feels to walk in the back door and greet my
parents and family, not having the heart to tell them that I nearly did not
come back from the last call. I wish you could feel the hurt as people
verbally, and sometimes physically, abuse us or belittle what I do, or as
they express their attitudes of "It will never happen to me"

I wish you could realize the physical, emotional and mental drain or missed
meals, lost sleep and forgone social activities, in addition to all the tragedy
my eyes have seen.

I wish you could know the brotherhood and self-satisfaction of helping save
a life or preserving someone's property, or being able to be there in time of
crisis, or creating order from total chaos.

I wish you could understand what it feels like to have a little boy tugging at
your arm and asking, "Is Mommy okay?" Not even being able to look in his
eyes without tears from your own and not knowing what to say. Or to have
to hold back a long time friend who watches his buddy having rescue
breathing done on him as they take him away in the ambulance.

You know all along he did not have his seat belt on. A sensation that I have
become too familiar with. Unless you have lived with this kind of life, you
will never truly understand or appreciate who I am, we are, or what our job
really means to us...I wish you could though.

-author unknown-

Fireman's Prayer
Lord, grant me courage
to face and conquer my fears
to share and endure the ordeal
of those who need me...
Grant me strength of heart and body
to bear whatever burden
might be placed upon me,
and to deliver to safety
all those placed within my care...
Give me concern for others
the compassion to comfort,
and the love to serve unselfishly
whenever I am called...
And please, Lord, through it all,
be by my side.
-- Author Unknown

Work in progress!
This page is a work in progress. Don't you Law Enforcement Officer think I have left you out. I am looking for the perfect piece for you! Only the best for my guys....LOVE YOU ALL!!! And the Military...same goes for you!..kisses, hugs, prayers and smiles to all of my ANGELS IN BLUE!

Jeri